Monday, April 25, 2016

Projek jahitan Irdina

Irdina dah Form 2. She's quite independent and has strong discipline when it comes to homework.

Projek Kemahiran Hidup
Memang dia ada bagitau awal tahun aritu, dia kena jahit baju untuk subjek Kemahiran Hidup. Aku excited sebab aku enjoy belajar SRT (Seni Rumah Tangga) masa form 1-3 dulu. Aku dok kata 'Bestnyer! Bestnyer! Dia tanya kat rumah ada mesin jahit ke? Aku kata ada tapi dah lama tak pakai. 'Yessss!' dia kata. Dalam hati rasa mungkin Irdina minat menjahit agaknya. Pastu citer projek menjahit abis kat situ

Then hari Sabtu baru ni Irdina habaq kata dia kena siapkan projek baju dia. Aku mintak tolong dia turunkan mesin jahit dari bilik atas. Dia tak buat-buat sampailah lepas Zohor. Pastu dah bawak turun, aku tengok la mesin tu. Sebenarnya aku tak pernah menjahit guna mesin jahit eletrik. Aku pun tak paham apa maksud menda-menda kat  mesin jahit tu. Aku try jahit, pastu benang bergumpal kat belakang kain walaupun benang atas nampak OK. Hmmm.... aku kata aku kena google dulu camna nak guna mesin jahit elektrik.

Kebetulan petang tu memang aku tak sempat google sebab ada orang datang. Lepas orang datang aku tengok movie pulak citer 'Divergent' pastu sambung ' Insurgent' sampai kul 9 malam. Bila dah pukul 9, Irdina tanya aku 'boleh tak google sekarang?' She must be very desperate. Rupanya projek dia kena antar hari Isnin!

Panic attack?
Aku pun rasa nak marah sebab ini sudah kira last minute. Dengan aku tak tahu kenapa benang tu bergumpal, cuba-cuba adjust sekoci, bergumpal jugak. Esok ada Lutfi nyer Sports Day pulak 1/2 hari. Hai! Sempat ke nak menjahit ni! Disebabkan aku pun dah kepenatan, aku give up dan kata kat dia mungkin dia tak dapat abiskan projek dia tapi aku tengok dia selamba jek. Aku kata as last resort, nak antar service kat kedai Singer sebelah restoran Haslinda Sim lepas Sports Day Lutfi esok.

Sekali tu, kedai tu tak buka hari Ahad. Aku dah nak give up and kata kat Irdina nampaknya dia tak dapat abiskan projek dia. Rasa macam nak bebel kat dia: kenapa last minute, kenapa tak turunkan mesin jahit awal-awal, lain kali plan, buat sikit-sikit, jangan dah nak antar baru nak buat....tapi aku pikir balik. Dia tak siap sebab dia atau aku? Memang projek dia tapi aku macam ada rasa bersalah dan ada contribution jugak dia tak dapat siapkan projek dia.

Mak jugak yang tolong
Masa tu dah pukul 3.00 lebih. Aku decide nak call mak aku tanya pasal masalah benang bergumpal tu. Bila call, mak aku kata aku kena pandai-pandai adjust benang tapi mak aku kata agak susah dia nak explain kat aku. Halamak! Apa maksud 'pandai-pandai adjust benang' tu? Tapi aku rasa a bit better sebab ntah-ntah mesin jahit tu tak rosak dan tak perlu service pun. Aku jek kena paham mesin tu. Semacam aku dapat semangat balik untuk terus cuba sampai Irdina boleh siapkan projek dia.

Yang kiri tu contoh benang bergumpal. Yg kanan dah OK.


Tension in the tnread
Aku search dan search kat YouTube dan akhirnya keyword google aku 'tension in the thread' membuahkan hasil. Sekarang baru aku paham bahawa tension benang tu memainkan peranan pada kekemasan jahitan. Benang atas kena tegang sikit, jangan longgar sangat dan kena tahu macam mana nak insert benang pada tepi sekoci mesin jahit letrik. Alhamdulillah! Pada pukul 4.30 Irdina dah boleh mula menjahit. Aku rasa lega sesangat..



Pastu dalam pukul 8 malam, Irdina kata problem benang bergumpal tu jadi balik. Hmmm... Aku nervous and rasa nak give up lagi sebab tiada apa-apa yang diubah masa Irdina menjahit...... kecuali aku notice benang kat sekoci dah tinggal sikit. Aku agak mungkin sebab tu, benang bawah kurang tension dan lambat naik ke atas. Aku refill sekoci and try balik. Alhamdulillah, jahitan jadi OK balik.

Thank you Allah!
Aku rasa sungguh bersyukur sebab aku tak marah, bebel or blame Irdina. A few things aku belajar dari insiden ni:
  1. Irdina came to me for help. Kalau aku marah dia, mesti lepas ni dia tak mau mintak tolong aku lagi, takut dengan aku.
  2. Sebelum aku nak marah, baik aku bermonolog dengan diri sendiri dulu. Apa effect kalau aku marah? Sebenarnya kemarahan aku tu hanya nak blame orang sebab tak nak mengaku kesilapan sendiri.
  3. Do your best. Aku nearly give up dan Irdina mungkin dapat markah tak best untuk projek dia. Tetapi semacam ada yang terngiang-ngiang di telinga kata jangan give up. Cuba dan cuba selagi ada masa. Aku bersyukur kepada Allah SWT kerana aku rasa ini adalah pertolongan daripadaNYA. Allah SWT semacam mendengar monolog aku dan niat aku sebenarnya ingin sangat membantu Irdina tetapi jika aku bertindak mengikut cara aku selama ini (melenting dan blame anak), aku tidak akan menjadi ibu yang penyayang kepada mereka.
Aku harap Irdina pun belajar sesuatu......

Wow! How she has grown!


OPL_Progress Week 1

Week 1
18 - 24 Apr 2016

Guess what! Things looked positive until I couldn't control myself on Sunday!

Total loss Week 1 = -0.3kg!

This is my No.1 problem in losing weight. I keep on sabotaging and allowed myself to gave in to temptations. But who doesn't????....I did go as low as 69.9kg, I could have jot down total weight loss of 1.4kg. I shall try to cover this by ensuring the total loss for Week 1 and Week 2 is 2.0kg which means I have to lose 2.3kg in Week 2.
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I did Tabata 3 times last week, good at my portion, been eating fruits for snacks. I was quite conscious of my state and my effort in losing weight. The challenge in Week 2 would be the 3 day weekend and I'm going back to Perlis. Another sabotage? I hope not.....

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Ops Puteri Lilin

I'm still unable to hit the 60s. My weight stay stagnant at 70-71kg. Frustrated, yes.... but I don't want to give up. I do Tabata 2-3 times a week so I expect that should reduce my weight but it didn't. 

At this point of my life, I accept that losing weight at this age is not as easy as when I was in my 20s. I remember just doing aerobics once a week, eat meals on time (because I was in a boarding school) and I never cared about the portion, just eat whatever being served and I still could lose weight. I felt really healthy, my waist and thighs were small that I could fit in straight cut jeans. That was like zillion years ago.

Now entering the 40 series, things really get so hard. I lost weight to 64kg in 2013 but back to my old weight (70kg) by end of 2015. I want to relive the 2013 moment but it is so so hard. I've been at 70s since October 2015 and even today I'm still at 70.5kg. Arghhh! My target is at least to get to 67kg but it has been so hard just to lose the 3kg.

Enough of my rambling on my frustration. Ops Puteri Lilin is about making changes in the exercise routine. Why Puteri Lilin? Because usually I don't exercise on Fridays because I would go to Pasar Tani to buy lunch. However, the weather has been too hot lately thus my friends and I decided to sacrifice our lunch with Tabata! Great! We've been into our 2nd week last week. The target is to maintain for 4 weeks.

Kenangan di Jepun

Aku amat berterima kasih kepada Allah SWT kerana impian aku untuk sampai ke Jepun tercapai. Kalau boleh, nak imbau kembali perasaan bila berada di sana dan cara aku....simpan resit. Actually nak buat macam scrap book tapi aku tahu 'cita-cita' itu terlalu tinggi...heh.... So end up just tampal resit-resit from shopping, pamphlet yang menarik or just write down whatever notes into a book. Truthfully bila tengok balik buku ni, memang ia berjaya mengembalikan kenangan dan perasaan aku ketika berada di sana. Alhamdulillah!

Monday, March 21, 2016

Writing

Kalau tak aritu rasa macam nak abandon blogging. But then terbaca pulak about writing can improve one's life. Kalau tak tulis blog, bila lagi la pulak nak menulis...

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Blog posts could be one's diary. Dulu orang tulis diari, tulis tangan. Sekarang mana ada. By writing it can help you to express your feelings and let go whatever bottled inside you that you can't really tell people about. Or writing extends whatever you've tell other people in written form that you can always go back and reminiscence about. So feeling renewed, I'm happy to continue blogging although my life is not as interesting as other...Haha!
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Personally, things get clearer when you write. Your worries, goals, excitement, achievement. A good reference as well to look back what you've achieved in life, the little things that truly matter to you. How you cope with frustration and anger.... write it down. It could be reference to other people as well....

So start writing anything. Blog might not be your thing. Then write poems or even answer a customer survey.....
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Tabata Protocol

Find songs that help you to keep going
Dah tak berapa pegi gym sangat sebab discover lagu Tabata kat Youtube that can keep me going. Sebelum ni (2 tahun dulu! Hah!) buat jugak Tabata tapi guna app yang ada count jek. After a while, rasa boring. Pastu pegi kelas yang buat Tabata. Best pulak sebab ada lagu yang menaikkan semangat. Tapi lama-lama rasa macam rugi pulak nak pergi kelas semata-mata nak buat Tabata sedangkan boleh buat kat rumah. Tu yang dapat idea cari lagu dalam Youtube.
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Restart Tabata in the morning
Sekarang dah 2 minggu buat Tabata kat rumah lepas bangun pagi. Buat 8 set: 20 saat exercise, 10 saat rest sebanyak 8 kali (1 set). After complete 1 set, rehat 1 minit. Mula-mula nak start memangla rasa berat sangat tapi Alhamdulillah, lepas dah mula best pulak rasa sebab memang berpeluh gila. Tu buat pagi-pagi, so confirm peluh tu bukan sebab panas.

Rasa lebih semangat pagi-pagi sebab dimulakan dengan something yang sihat. Exercise and F1. Tapi kg masih static kat 70-72. Tak jejak lagi 69.0. Adoiii! Tapi sendiri tahu, walau exercise banyak mana pun, kalau makan tak jaga memangla kg tak turun.

Effective to burn fat
And exercise in the morning too, helps to achieve the 'burn fat' goal sebab kita kan belum makan apa-apa right after bangun tido. Kalau exercise petang atau malam, it will burn the carbo yang kita makan tadi. Unless memang tak amik carbo langsung waktu lunch/snack petang, barulah boleh turun lemak. Tapi kita memang susah sikit bab 'jaga makan' ni. Walaupun portion wise memang dah improve, always get side tracked and sabotaj diri sendiri during the weight loss phase....Tu yang kg tak turun-turun.

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Rasa camni lagi effective sebab my target is to reduce my fat %. Cardio bakar carbo yang kita makan lunch tadi. Tabata boleh bakar lemak yang memang dah ada dalam badan. Lepas dua minggu rasa macam pinggang ada kecik sikit tapi peha masih rasa sama. Kena sabar lagi sebab baru 2 minggu. Kita ni pear shape, confirmlah the bottom half susah sikit nak turun...but it is POSSIBLE! Just keep going ok!

Maintaining a healthy lifestyle
I'm also happy to know that I still can continue doing this even bila bibik dah takda. I've figured out how and when to slot in exercise and at the same time attending to cooking and sweeping in the mornings sebab boleh buat Tabata as short as 4 min.

It only took as long as you want it. Each set takes about 5 minutes including the 1 min rest. I always do 8 sets which gives total of 40 min. Tapi tak rasa lama sebab ada 10 sec rest. The key is to all out doing the 20 sec exercise. Sampai tercungap-cungap...pastu tu rest 10 sec. At the moment kita buat mid range. Tak slow, tak laju....
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My Herbalife set dah abis. Kena beli nampaknya. Kali ni nak beli Protein Shake jugak sebab sebelum ni amik F1 jek. Nak tgk boleh tak protein shake tolong bakar lemak lebih sikit. And re-order Tea Mix yang dah lama tak beli.
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Will update soon!

Monday, February 29, 2016

Renewed determination??

Berapa kali renew la kan! Haha!! Especially on weight loss.... I haven't budged from 70 kg yet since November! It's has been 4 months! Luckily it's not creeping up but I am so very far from my normal BMI!
At times, I feel frustrated. Why is it so hard to shed off the kgs... Well, I admit I haven't following the diet plan as per 2013.

Exercise
I exercised during lunch back in 2013, 3 times a week. Usually I did a 30 min session of threadmill (10min), yoga (20 min). Now I go to fitness clubs to do zumba, piloxing, aerodance  etc. In terms of hours, I think I do more this time compared to 2013 but still that didn't help much.

Meal replacement
I don't take F1 for dinner whereas I had F1 twice back in 2013, one in the morning as breakfast and one to replace dinner. This time I only take once due to I'm more conscious on the costs.

Cheating
I might have cheated a lot this time. Eat a lot during weekends.

Looking at what I've written, my current plan is more for maintenance, not losing weight. Hmmmm....