Jasmin Nadirah 2023

She a quiet person. Introvert maybe. She's 1 year younger than people think her age is...she was born on Dec 2004, so people would think she's 19 today. Actually she just turned 18 years 6 mths.

She's a CAPRICORN (extracted from here )

Personality traits include ambitious, persistent, realistic focusing on the negatives rather than 'possibles'. Capricorns have zero tolerance when it comes to being made fun of, like, ZERO. Caps can make sacrifices. They can control their urges. They are rock solid. Caps are into money, puzzles/ games and DIY/gardening. Caps loves being at home, doing something useful

Capricorns get stuff done.

The key thing for Capricorn is to feel they are being justly rewarded for their precious efforts. They are prepared to work harder than anyone else, but only so long as the payback justifies it. They are born to earn big amounts!

Jasmin as described by me

• Jasmin loves to be touched, hold. Possibly it's lacking from me as she grows older. I need to hug her more
• Jasmin need attention. Jasmin is sort of middle child which tend to lack attention from parents. She's 1 year younger than her birthdate. I need to communicate with her more.
• Jasmin is strong and has a mind of her own. Jasmin is potential to go far but she needs support and encouragement from me so she can stride with confidence.
• Doakan untuk Jasmin. Teach her personal hygiene and Islamic preachings. Treat her and teach her to be a lady. I have to give nasihat both for Jasmin and Irdina. They will listen....I just need to guide them.....

Syawal dah nak berakhir

 Tahun ni memang rasa Syawal tu sekejap sangat....sebab cuti balik kampung tu panjang kot. Tahun ni aku kena ganti puasa 7 hari. Selalu aku dapat puasa enam sekaligus tapi tahun ni takda rezeki sebab this week is the last Syawal week. Saja nak list out things happened last week sebagai kenangan:

Ahad 7hb: Masak bihun sup jemput Mcik, Anjang, Azie, Imi sekeluarga

Isnin, Selasa, Khamis: puasa ganti (3 hari). 

Hari Selasa 9hb aku bawa HRV as practice untuk pegi Melaka weekend nanti, pastu balik dari kerja masak lagi sebab Akmal nak datang ziarah (dia tak dapat dtg hari Ahad). Bersilat aku kat dapur sebab ayam/ikan memang tak keluarkan. Plan nak beli sotong buat goreng tepung balik kerja tapi takda rezeki sebab sotong ke, udang ke dah abis. Sib baik sebelum tu mintak husband beli lauk bila dia keluar makan tengahari so dia belik ayam/daging salai masak lomak cilik api. Aku pulak masak ikan jenahak bakar, goreng sayur dengan telur. Pastu tambah ayam goreng Airfryer. Total lauk ada 5 (masak lemak, sayur goreng, ayam goreng, omelette, ikan bakar)

Rabu 10hb: Jamuan Raya TM kat sebelah, Abah pegi UK seminggu (Rabu ke Rabu). Kali ni aku tak nak bersilat. Kalau dulu aku akan maintain pegi opis awal jugak so punyalah berebut bersiap sebab kena hantar the 2 boys to school then off straight to work. Kali ni aku nak settle hantar dioghang dulu, pastu aku balik rumah mandi and bersiap. Kalau routine  biasa, keluar rumah kul 7.10 (dah ready nak pegi opis).....bila husband outstation, aku keluar rumah 7.10 jugak tapi belum mandi...haha!

Khamis 11hb:1st time aku tukar lampu kalimantang. Kebetulan Irdina nak balik rumah Khamis malam sebab kolej dia takda air. Dia balik bertiga dengan kawan-kawan dia. Aku baru teringat 'Alamak! lampu bilik Irdina ada problem'......bila ON dia berkelip, sakit mata. Masa tu dah pukul 9.00 pm lebih, pegi kedai pun dah nak tutup kot. Sian dia. Masa tu aku tengah sibuk masak kuah laksa untuk hari Jumaat. 

Jumaat 12hb: Masak Laksa Johor, jemput officemate datang rumah. Actually member yang suggest co -host sebab dia nak masak Nasi Tomato, pastu dia suh aku masak Laksa Johor and venue kat rumah aku. Aku OK jek sebab bahan mentah memang banyak aku beli aritu tu kecuali ikan la.Aku nak tenang-tenang jek hari Jumaat so tu yang kuah Laksa aku masak Khamis malam. Sampai kul 12.00 malam kau.

Lepas jamu officemate makan, aku pegi Speedmart beli lampu baru and pasangkan kat bilik Irdina. Rupanya senang jek! Haha! Kenapa la selama ni harapkan Abah! Adoiiiii....

Sabtu 13hb: Nak ke Melaka pulak sebab Akmal jemput open house rumah dia. Melaka dekat je dalam 1 1/2 jam so memang aku nak pegi although suami takda. Boleh beraya ke rumah Iwan sekali. Kasyif and Irdina tak ikut so aku ajak Mak Long since kereta kosong. Ni 1st time Kasyif tanya boleh tak dia tinggal sebab dia ada aktiviti kat sekolah. Bagusla dia menyuarakan pendapat dia and aku OK je.

Aku bertolak Sabtu pagi kul 11.30 am. Aku dah expect jem teruk tapi Alhamdulillah perjalanan lancar although kereta banyak. Lepak rumah Akmal sampai pukul 5.00 pastu pegi rumah Iwan. Aku baru perasan aku letih sebab bila petang tu aku tak cakap banyak. Pikir nak mandi jek sebab panas! 

Esoknya Ahad 14hb, aku bantu masak nasi goreng and balik ke Bangi pukul 11.00 am jugak sebab nak elak jem. Initial plan nak antar Jasmin balik Baranang. Pastu Irdina kata dia nak antar tapi pukul 5.00 petang tu dia tak bangun lagi, masih tido so aku kata kat Jasmin biar aku antar. Pastu dalam 5.15 dia tanya should dia naik Ashraf sebab Ashraf pun dah bersiap nak balik. Aku suh dia yang decide so dia kata naik Ashraf. Aku ok jek tapi before nak kuar dia peluk aku pastu nangis. Aku tanya kenapa? Nak mama antar ke? Lama dia pikir, pastu dia kata takpa la...dia naik Ashraf. Aku tanya dia nape dia sedih. Dia kata takda pape, homesick saja....

Sampai ke malam aku berpikir pasal Jasmin. Aku berdoa 'Ya Allah! Kau tenangkan hati anak-anak aku Irdina, Jasmin, Kasyif and Lutfi supaya boleh belajar dengan tenang'.

Happening betul last week. Dengan hubby not around, masak 2-3 round, bawak HRV pegi opis and Melaka. 

Aku ni nak pegi Rome in 2 weeks tapi memang tak finalize apa-apa pun lagi. Kete sewa and hotel kat UK belum book lagi.....pasni la....

Financial Planning

 Weekend was quite busy. Actually productive! Pagi tu aku ada register free class 'Newbie Saham Mastery Online' by Tuan Nizam Malek. Ok jugak sebab memang betul-betul basic, memang praktikal. Ajar cara baca app dengan screener. Pastu dia ada paid online class for RM700. Available for 6 months, belajar ikut masa sendiri. Rasa macam nak amik, cuma belum buat tindakan

That free class start kul 8.30 - 11.30. Aku rasa content dia betul-betul start kul 9.00. Habis lambat, dalam kul 12.45. Aku kat Mat Ayam Kampung Seksyen 7 masa tu, tengah lunch before amik my daughter Jasmin kat SGS, Seremban. Dia balik for good tapi SPM tak abis lagi sebab dia kena COVID haritu.

So after lunch, pegi amik dia. Sampai around 1.30pm. Lepas angkat barang sume, plan nak singgah rumah my brother kat Jasin. Sampai Jasin dalam pukul 3.30pm and kebetulan family my sis in law ada sekali. Aku rasa bertuah/ rezeki aku dapat jumpa mak and ayah dia sebab dah lama tak jumpa. Umur mereka dah masuk 80an, tak secergas dulu....gitu la manusia. Nanti giliran aku pula....Rupanya dioghang ada buat makan-makan, again rezeki kami dapat merasa air tangan mereka. 

Then bertolak ke Batu Pahat pula around 7.00pm. Sampai Batu Pahat dalam pukul 9.30pm. Borak-borak sampai pukul 12.00. Esoknya mak aku ajak settlekan cukai tanah kat Bangunan Gunasama. Pastu beli Nasi Baryani Mat Shah yg femes kat Batu Pahat. Beratur dalam 1 jam juga la, tapi memang takda rezeki nak dapat kambing. Kitoghang memang dah sampai depan kaunter nak order, alih-alih dioghang kata kambing dah abis....Adeh! So kami beli lauk ayam saja 9 bungkus, yang lauk kambing beli kat orang lain.

Pastu pegi Majlis Daerah dekat Dataran Batu Pahat, dapatkan borang untuk update nama pemilik Taman Makmur daripada nama arwah ayah kepada nama aku. Kena ada supporting document tapi tak bawak, so bawa balik borang tu dulu, hantar kemudian. Balik dah pukul 11.30, makan lunch nasi baryani terus sebab aku nak bertolak dalam pukul 2.00 ptg sebab nak jumpa adik aku lagi satu kat Ayer Hitam.

Why tajuk Financial Planning? Sebab main objective nak bantu adik aku yg Ayer Hitam tu pasal kewangan dia. Dia banyak dah buat silap, memandai-mandai, meminjam-minjam, janji manis, terjebak...semua lah...sepatutnya dengan gaji yang dia dapat tu, bulanan dia selesa tapi...hai, ntah la. Nak marah-marah dah tak guna. So aku insist nak jumpa dia, tolong apa yang boleh. Bukan bagi dia duit untuk selesaikan masalah, aku pun tengah berjimat sebab nak bersara awal. Aku bantu dia kirakan perbelanjaan dia guna Excel. Alhamdulillah, dia suh forward Excel tu untuk discuss dengan wife dia. 

These are the things I want to focus on, not my work anymore....help people, help others, help my children, help myself....

And lastly, bertolak balik dari Ayer Hitam dalam pukul 7.00pm, straight nak gi amik Dina kat Sunway. Sampai Sunway dalam pukul 12.00 tengah malam sebab PLUS jem. Dina lepak kat tempat kawan dia kat Sunway lepas balik dari program kat Perak. Kawan dia tu sama-sama pegi Perak.

9 things achieved within the weekend. That was a lot!

Post MCO: Anak-anak dah nak masuk sekolah

Baru lepas antar Jasmin ke SGS tadi. Ada SOP: parents x boleh kuar dari kereta, barang yang student boleh bawa limited to 4-5 bags/luggage. Memang kejap gila tadi, tak sempat peluk-peluk Jasmin. Dia yang kata dah boleh balik, aku pun turutkan saja. Aku kata nanti call tau...

Esok Kasyif pulak. Camna agaknya bebudak bila nak start sekolah balik. Lutfi minggu depan 22hb July. Then tadi ada wassap kata Irdina kena duduk hostel starting Aug. Scholars kena duduk hostel, haritu kata study online sampai Dec. By the way, Alhamdulillah Irdina dapat scholarship Telekom...Thank you Allah!

Rumah akan sunyi kembali. Sunyi tu tak lah sunyi sangat. What will be missed is the moment dapat duduk di rumah sama-sama di mana semua ada. Selalu cuti sekolah, anak ada di rumah, mak bapak pulak takda. Weekend, mana yang duduk asrama takda pulak di rumah.

Mak bapak akan sibuk kembali pergi bekerja, rendah jem. Aku harap WFH ni really a new normal for my company, jangan main cakap je. Sat lagi suh jugak staff pegi office...hope not.

Sedar tak sedar, anak-anak aku dah besar. Bakal meneruskan hidup masing-masing. Aku sebagai ibu sentiasa mendoakan kesejahteraan dan kejayaan mereka. Sentiasa taat perintah Allah SWT, dipermudahkan urusan, diluaskan rezeki, bakal mencipta kejayaan yang diidam-idamkan. Aku tak mintak banyak. Aku harapkan yang terbaik daripada Allah SWT dan anak-anak yang sentiasa mendoakan keampunan untukku bila aku dah takda nanti...

Time for myself

So I didn't post anything in Sept ya. Many things happened since last post:

1. My brother got married 14 Sept
2. My colleague quits and got married 22 Sept
3. My 2nd kid sat for PT3 3-8 Oct
4. My 3rd kid sat for UPKK same time as PT3

My weekends were full with other stuff, I didn't get to clean my house. Only today I got to take a look around and was overwhelmed with the mess. My husband has been away 3 times to Sarawak within a month. He has been busy giving talks.

Then I had to crack my head for upcoming KOREA trip 29 Nov - 6 Dec.  Guess what, it's an excursion of 23 pax with age ranging from 65 to 1 year old! Had to work out the budget, itinerary and figuring out the logistics....for the group. Not to mention HM Family's budget! Ya Allah! Penin kepala.

What should I wear in KOREA???

Work wise, things were chaotic with changes in key management. So Sept-Oct was busy with that too.

Weight management was a yoyo. I've hit 68.0kg last 2 weeks but maintaining it was proved difficult. I have to improve my choice of food and portion. I'm not complaining though because I manage to wear my old clothes now. I need to calmly persevere and target fat loss because I believe the kg loss will follow suit. My target is to maintain 67kg when I'm on my way to Korea.

Coming soon: My eldest sits for SPM starting 5 Nov. Ya Allah! Dah besar dah anak aku ni! Aritu attend solat hajat kat sekolah dia before shoot balik Perlis for Deepavali break. It was a good session for all of us.

She had her batch dinner on Monday and I supported her all the way. We rent a dress for RM100, bought new pinky shawl and shoes. I lent her my accessories and suggested her to look for someone to do the makeup insead of doing it herself. My hubby was clueless and not able to join our girly conversation.

2019 has many history to remember....

WELCOME 2019

Wow...it's already 2019 and next year is 2020. I remember thinking 2020 is still far ahead, back when Dr M came out with the Vision 2020 in 1991. That was 27 years ago. If I look further, in 27 years to come I'll be 70. Will I still be alive?

The future scares me. I'll be getting old, the kids will grow up and will not stay with me anymore, i will lose my mum, parent in laws, aunties and uncles....the people that are close to me. Then the war, apocalypse, pre-end of the world like Dajjal, famine , the end of the world itself.... Ya Allah! ampunkan dosa-dosa ku....

Let's talk about now, 2019....this is what I want to do in 2019:

Work
Start enrich my vocabulary and listen to stuff related to finance, business and self improvement. Work on my confidence, manage my staff, have fun with my them. Talk more since I'll be in meetings often. Do things differently in shorter time so I can go home early and make time for myself. I don't have to do the hard work myself, let my subordinates explore to grow them while I take the helicopter view. Remember to grow my staff and appreciate them...

Kids
Enrol them in useful curricular classes and track their progress
Irdina, Saiful Nang's video classes after SPM.
Jasmin: Tuition classes to prepare for PT3. English maybe?
Kasyif: Music class maybe?
Lutfi: Reading class @ Sek 7?
Be more involved as parents at their school

Evo
Start rent it out?

Myself
Lose weight as much as I can. Don't stop at 64kg. Start build up muscle to stay strong and do cardio. Have an aim what I want to achieve in yoga.
Watch what I eat but eat everything. Start taking pics of what I eat and what I cook. Post them in Keluarga Hafizal's fb.

Husband
Be more attentive. Cook his favourite unhealthy food occasionally. Show my appreciation.

Family
Save 24k this year for rumah Taman Makmur so I can distribute the pusaka to my siblings.

Akhirat
Give more. Start reading on Haji. Go to Haji courses. Appeal for Haji in Sept. Start mengaji or go to mengaji classes

Dream
Win RM1,000,000 in Bank Islam's Al Awfar account draw. I want to pray hard and seek Allah's mercy to let me win that amount of money....

It's already February!?

Hmmm....usually awal tahun aku boleh buat a few postings. Tahun ni sempat buat 1 jer.... Kena cover balik ni....

Jasmin and SASEM
Sepanjang sebulan January tu, banyak focus pada Jasmin masuk asrama SASEM starting dengan registration on 4th, then visit dia on 7th (balik hari), then visit lagi on the 14th (yang ni dia dah start homesick and menangis).
We had to decide whether to accept offer masuk SMK Jalan 4 (buat rayuan aritu and dapat tempat). I personally wanted Jasmin to stay at SASEM. I met her dorm-mates and mommies from Selangor and they were all very nice. Baru jek nak accept the fact that Jasmin would be spending her teenage years kat SASEM, sekali Jasmin tak mau dah sekolah situ. I don't want to dwell too much on that. So Jasmin spent about 23 days kat SASEM, pastu sekarang dah balik Bangi and sekolah kat Jalan 4.

Atkins Diet
Aku start buat Atkins Diet on 16 Jan. Semangat betul! Tetiba aku rasa nak buat Atkins sebab aku tengok adik aku Apis weekend 14-15th tu, dengan tekun follow diet Atkins tu. Siap boleh tolak Mee Racun, masak breakfast sendiri and bawak bekal lunch bila dia dekat rumah aku. Kalau dia boleh buat, kenapa aku tak boleh? Terussss Isnin tu aku nekad nak buat. Mula-mula OK, turun about 3kg dalam masa 7 hari, sesuatu yang aku tak dapat achieve sejak bulan 12 tahun lepas. Happy gak. Pastu bila balik kampung for Raya Cina, aku kecundang! Tak tahu nak makan apa, telan jugak karbo sebab takda alternative. Start dengan thosai for breakfast kat Kuala Kangsar. Then bawal goreng panas kat Juru (kena makan dengan nasi putih baru sedappp). Kat kampung siap breakfast nasi lemak.... Balik Bangi dah naik balik 2 kg. Alhamdulilah turun balik 1 kg so as of today, I weigh 71.2 kg. Berat before balik kampung is 70.1kg so harap-harap boleh achieve 70kg esok, jadi nanti kalau aku balik Batu Pahat untuk kahwin Faiza, harapan berat aku dapatlah below 70kg.

Menyesal la jugak sebab tak tekun sebab bukan senang nak start ketosis. Target aku 60kg with improved fat %. Since Atkins target fat burning, harapan aku sangat tinggi. Timeline aku sampai company dinner in November. So aku ada 9 bulan untuk turun 10kg.

Ok, kena buat kira-kira sikit untuk target 2017 ni.... Babai!

New Year 2017

Assalamualaikum,

Selamat datang 2017! Semoga tahun ini lebih ceria, bersemangat, barakah dan dilimpahkan dengan rezeki yang boleh dikongsi. Aminnnn....

Hari ni tak kerja, Standard kot amik cuti on 1st day kids naik sekolah. For the past few days, aku agak sibuk menguruskan hal keperluan anak-anak. Sebenarnya aku dah start sikit-sikit lepas Christmas haritu. Pergi beli baju sekolah, kasut, keperluan asrama Jasmin dan aku sempat pergi slimming treatment hari Jumaat, booking Airfryer kat Aeon Big on Thursday.
Benda rutin yang aku selalu buat tak sempat nak buat (masa ni la rasa nak berenti kerja) macam menyapu dan memasak. Aku re-prioritizing heh....Fokus kat budak-budak nak naik sekolah. Dulu bibik yang tolong tengokkan apa yang mereka perlu, aku pergi beli. Now I have to be in charge from A to Z for the first time, with help from hubby and kids (and my mum!). OK lah but to me I did it at the eleventh hour. Hari ni aku baru nak iron baju sekolah Lutfi and Jasmin yang nak pakai harini. Yang lain antar service gosok kat dobi sampai baju sekolah agama Kasyif tak tinggalkan sepasang kat rumah untuk pakai arini! Jadi, pagi ni dia tak pergi sekolah agama dan aku kena antar dia dalam pukul 11 pagi untuk naik bas sekolah dari sekolah agama.

Kali ni jadi a bit busy sebab Jasmin naik Tingkatan 1 dan masuk asrama juga. So selain daripada beli kelengkapan sekolah, kena beli kelengkapan asrama pulak. Yang paling 'best', baju kurung (untuk pergi prep) kena beli lagi sebab aku belikan baju kurung kat depa setahun sekali masa raya jek. Sib baik dapat beli yang offer beli dua harga RM100, tapi tak banyak pilihan lah. OK lah tu, buat pakai harian. Yang tu beli kat Bangi Gateway. Pastu nak beli lagi 2 pasang, aku try Warta, Butik Zaida, SES Pesona, tapi hampa. Last-last beli kat Econsave, ada RM39 sepasang. Kain cam agak keras, kalau mak aku dia tak beli dah. Tapi dah tak tau nak pegi mana lagi dan masa tu dah pukul 5 lebih (aku kuar rumah kul 12.00), aku beli je la.

Memang banyak trip ke kedai (I don't call this shopping!) sampai ada yang pergi kedai yang sama 2-3 kali. Hari ni kena pegi Billion pulak sebab T-shirt dan tracksuit Jasmin x cukup lagi. Ikutkan je la, tinggal hari ini jek. Lepas ni dah lain cerita.....

So memang tak sempat nak kemas barang aku, rumah dan pikir pasal aku (macam aku buat sebelum ni)....This time I should just do it whatever that I want to do for myself as I don't have the time to think...Get it done...Get things done...Now is the time to think about the kids....

Harapan atau Angan-angan?

Semalam masa siap-siap nak balik Bangi, kami sekeluarga duduk berbual dulu sebelum bertolak balik. Asalnya bercerita yang kami mahu pergi buat 'site visit' sekolah baru Jasmin, SM Sains Sembrong di Kluang. Kemudian ayah aku (atuk mereka) memberi kata-kata nasihat kepada anak-anak aku supaya tekun belajar dan bertanyakan cita-cita mereka... Tetiba terpacul dari mulut aku ni 'Dr. Jasmin, Ir Irdina, Prof Kasyif...'
Macam best jek kan bunyi ya!...Muahaha! Aminnnn...semoga anak-anak aku berjaya dunia akhirat... Lutfi? Mana yang sedap? Dr Lutfi? Ir Lutfi? Prof Lutfi? How about Ustaz Lutfi? Hmmm, yang last tu macam sedap jek! Hehe...

Aminnnn...Aminnn, Ya Rabbalalamin. Usaha, doa dan tawakal......

SM Sains Sembrong, Kluang

Itulah sekolah yang Jasmin dapat semasa apply SBP online. Application nak guna qouta alumni TKC tak dapat sebab aku jadi member OGA tak sampai setahun.

Memang tak pernah dengar pasal sekolah ni sebelum ni sebab ni sekolah baru, started operation in 2012. Jadi sekolah tu baru 5 tahun beroperasi. Tak sure prestasi sekolah ni macam mana....

Banyak sangat aku dengan hubby aku pikir. Sebenarnya tak payah pikir bebanyak sebab Jasmin memang nak duduk asrama.

Result SBP tu keluar on 14 Dec, about 2 weeks ago. Semalam pergi site visit sekolah tu (aku memang balik kampung for Christmas).... Sama saja macam sekolah lain.... Aku agak excited juga bila tengok banner niche sport kat situ ialah memanah (aritu memang Jasmin nak try memanah)...

Aku kekadang OK, kekadang tak OK. Yang buat aku OK sbb Jasmin memang nak cuba duduk asrama. Yang aku tak OK, aku tak sure whether sekolah tu akan mencungkil potensi Jasmin.  Aku OK bila mood 'let's give this school a chance' datang...regardless SASEM (nickname sekolah tu) tu sekolah baru, mungkin boleh cipta rekod macam sekolah-sekolah baru seperti SM Sains Perempuan Seremban, SM Sains Alam Shah, SMS Seri Puteri etc...

Aku tak OK bila rangking sekolah ni masih kat bawah-bawah lagi.

Expectation aku sangat tinggi. Aku mahu Jasmin berjaya dan aktif dalam kokurikulum (walaupun Jasmin senyap kat sekolah rendah). Aku harap Jasmin mempergunakan peluang di sekolah asrama untuk memajukan dirinya. Dan aku amat berharap SASEM membantu Jasmin menyerlah potensi dirinya.

There's no turning back. Aku kena yakin dengan rezeki yang Allah SWT bagi. Kami kena berkorban dan berusaha supaya mencapai apa yang kami harapkan. This is just a beginning. Biarlah aku bersusah sekarang demi merealisasikan impian Jasmin. Semoga dia berjaya dunia akhirat (dan mendoakan aku bila aku tiada)

All the best Jasmin! Mama confirm akan rindu anak mama yang sorang ni! Sob! Sob!....

Result UPSR 2016

Esok result UPSR Jasmin keluar. Mama doakan semoga Jasmin mendapat keputusan yang terbaik. Mama tahu Jasmin sudah melakukan sebaik mungkin. Jasmin sudah berusaha bersungguh-sungguh. Selebihnya kita berserah kepada Allah SWT. Dia Yang Lebih Mengetahui.

Semoga Jasmin juga berjaya diterima di TKC.

Mama sayang Jasmin....

Permata hati

Anak-anak memang harta kita yang tak ternilai. Hanya pinjaman diberi Allah dan kita dipertanggungjawabkan untuk mendidik mereka ke jalan Allah. Baik didikannya, untunglah kita sebagai ibubapa. Doa anak yang soleh takkan putus bila kita tiada dan dapat membantu kita selepas kita meninggal dunia.

Post ini ialah sebagai doa aku kepada anak-anak ku yang aku amat kasihi dengan seluruh jiwa dan ragaku....

Irdina Afiqah
Anak yang cerdik. Patuh dan berhati lembut. Senyumannya manis seperti abahnya. Bijak dan tekun. Bakal pendidik yang berinspirasi. Bakal wanita solehah. Bakal isteri yang membahagiakan suami soleh. Bakal ahli syurga.

Jasmin Nadirah
Anak yang cerdik. Ada kekuatan dalam kelembutan. Bulu mata panjang menghias matanya yang cantik. Menyayangi kanak-kanak. Bakal merubah dunia melalui goncangan buaiannya. Bakal wanita solehah. Bakal isteri yang membahagiakan suami soleh. Bakal ahli syurga.

Kasyif
Anak yang cerdik. Senyumannya manis seperti kakak dan abahnya. Jelas menyayangi adiknya melalui perbuatan yang dizahirkan. Bakal memimpin. Bakal lelaki soleh. Bakal suami yang melindung dan menghargai isteri solehah. Bakal ahli syurga.

Lutfi Hadi
Anak yang cerdik. Berfikiran matang dan ketawanya membahagiakan. Pandai membuat orang tertawa. Bakal memimpin. Bakal lelaki soleh. Bakal suami yang melindung dan menghargai isteri solehah. Bakal ahli syurga.

Aminnnn....

Thank you Allah!

Bento I've prepared

The 1st week after bibik dah takda tu, semangat bukan main. Buat mini burger la, frozen begedil la... Terpengaruh tengok orang lain buat untuk anak-anak mereka. Then after a few weeks, aku still bekalkan the kids, cuma tak secanggih masa 1st week tu la. Sebab Jasmin pernah cakap kat aku 'mama buat jek yang simple-simple, tak yah nak bento-bento sangat!' Haha! Nak tergelak aku. Agaknya dia kesian tengok aku.... atau aku buat tak sedap? Muahaha!

Anyway, alhamdulillah aku rasa seronok prepare bekal dan masak meals untuk dioghang. Seronok bila tengok makanan abis la. Irdina pun ada cakap 'gemuk la camni. Tiap-tiap hari makan sedap!' Hihi! Kembang sekejap... Aku masak biasa-biasa jek. Alhamdulillah, anak-anak boleh terima. Kalau time malas atau penat atau takda idea, aku beli je. Dalam seminggu tak termasuk weekend, adalah satu hari 'cheat day' either makan lauk yang x abis semalam, atau masak frozen fried chicken atau beli lauk. OK lah tu. Aku bukan nak jadi the perfect housewife.....

Jasmin dah UPSR: Merdeka!

Semalam tamatlah peperiksaan UPSR untuk Jasmin. Sepanjang hari periksa tu, aku amik half day leave petang. Alhamdulillah, no objection from the office. Kalau ada pun, aku akan buat donno jek. Anak aku nak periksa kot! (walaupun UPSR jek! Heh)

Aku amik petang sebab nak sambut dia lepas dia abis kertas periksa untuk hari tu. So far kalau aku tanya, dia kata ok jek. Semalam abah dia tanya perasaan dia dah abis periksa.... dia kata 'takda perasaan!'....Aik! Seram pulak aku. Selalunya, at least kita rasa bebas sebab dah tak payah nak mengadap buku. Hmmmm.... apa-apa lah Jasmin, asalkan bahagia!....

Belanja makan kat Miyagi Bangi
Aku tahu dia suka makanan Jepun, so malam semalam aku terus belanja makan kat Miyagi Bangi. OK jugak sebab suasana tu ada rasa macam kat Jepun gak la. Aku belanja sekarang sebab nak menghargai usaha dia, result tu lain kira. Sebab kalau ikut konsep tawakal, memang dah boleh celebrate sekarang. Result tu nanti biar Allah SWT yang tentukan. Semoga anak aku mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang, Ya Allah!

So aku rasa aku dah boley tarik nafas lega untuk tahun ni. Kami sudah selesai menempuh cabaran yang aku dok risau untuk tahun ini:

• Life without bibik
• Jasmin UPSR

Tahun depan Kakak PMR pulak!

Jangan ungkit

Alhamdulillah, Allah SWT permudahkan. Aku belum rasa 'tak boleh cope'. Semoga perasaan ini kekal. Bila rasa nak mengungkit ke atau nak complain orang lain tak put effort, aku ingatkan diri aku yang Allah SWT put me in this situation for me to learn to be patient. Dan aku ingatkan diri aku, whatever yang aku buat dan tak ungkit, Allah SWT akan beri ganjaran yang besar buat aku sebagai ibu dan isteri. Ganjaran akhirat yang aku tak nampak... Syaratnya, JANGAN UNGKIT!!! Heh! sebab kekadang rasa geram tu ada... Contohnya pagi tadi, complete dengan Kasyif muntah, Lutfi kencing tilam, hujan pepagi....Imagine, aku baru jek kemas hall and nak masuk dapur masak breakfast. Sekali Kasyif muntah daaaa... Ishh...aku ada berbunyi jugak tapi tak seteruk sebelum-sebelum ni. Tapi kali ni aku bebel suh dia bagi aku sapu Vicks kat dia (sebelum ni dia tak mau).

Pastu adik dia turun, aku tengok seluar dia basah. Kencing tilam la tu!....Masa tuh dah pukul 7.00 pagi. Husband aku tak bangun lagi (dalam hati dah geram dah ni!) And pagi tu siap ngan hujan lagi. Aku budget aku boleh keluar rumah awal pergi office arini.... Tetttt! Wrong! Aku lambat sampai opis dalam 6 min.

I kept reminding myself, so I didn't utter any condemning words, membebel etc. I just did what I had to do. Lap muntah, mandikan Lutfi, kemas tilam yang kena kencing tu and mandi.... sabar, sabar aku cakap kat diri aku sendiri.... I was not this composed when I was young. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih Allah kerana memberi aku peluang belajar membetulkan kesilapan diri... Tapi adat manusia kan, selalu terlupa...termasuk aku!

1st day transit for Kasyif, trial exam for Jasmin

Transit
Kasyif dah start pergi transit kat Al Haziq harini. Camner agaknya ya? He was very positive this morning. Bangun dan pergi sekolah pun awal around 7.15am. Alhamdulillah....

Pagi tadi aku tuliskan note supaya dia tak lupa:
Letak baju sekolah agama dalam beg
Letak selipar dalam plastik, pastu letak dalam beg
Letak hanger dalam beg

Nanti petang, Jasmin akan amik and bawak balik beg dia ke rumah.

Can't wait to ask how was his day today....

UPSR trial
Hari ini juga trial UPSR untuk Jasmin. Ada jugak pesan sikit-sikit masa antar dia ke sekolah. Aku tak nak put pressure on her. After all, it's only academics. Tapi aku perasan macam dia lap airmata. Alamak dia rasa pressure ke? Sian pulak. Nanti balik nak tanya dia. Tapi Jasmin ni memang senyap sikit. Bukan Jasmin saja, Irdina pun cikgu kata senyap. Aku tak kisah, asal anak aku bahagia. Teringat pulak masa Jasmin attend Smart IQ, memang dia ada emotional meltdown. Jasmin seorang yang penyayang. Mungkin emosi dia sangat sensitif.

Hope today was not bad for her....

Tinggal 3 minggu lagi before bibik balik. Husband nak offer buat open permit (valid setahun) kot-kot dia rasa nak datang balik.....

Mandarin Oriental and ICC 2016

Actually my husband was given a 6 day stay at Mandarin Oriental as he was the organizing committee for ICC 2016 Kuala Lumpur from 23-27 May. Unfortunately, it was not during school holiday. After given a thought, we decided to let the children to be absent on Friday as this kind of opportunity does not knock on you twice. So my children and I joined my husband on Thursday night so we get to stay for 2 days 2 nights.

When I say 'opportunity', I mean 'when we'll ever get to stay in a RM800 per night hotel, for free... if not now?' Previously I was not that impressed and my thought was "Ah! It's just another hotel.." until my husband showed me the view from his room! I didn't know tMO is that close to KLCC Twin Tower!!!! Totally impressed now!!!!

Not only that, my husband was also given the MO Club access. I never knew the exclusivity of being a hotel club member until today. They have separate lounge that serves food which mean you don't have to join the buffet downstairs. Food may not be as extensive but the lounge is more private and looks so elegant and classy. I'm totally into their decor, silver/grey combined with lilac/purple..(drooling!!!) And club members always get rooms with the best views which usually at the highest level.

My husband was given a complimentary laundry/pressing service for 5 garments everyday. He even sent his underwear to utilize the privilege! I brought my batik long blouse along to utilize the service too (I've been wanting to sent it for dry clean but could find the time to).

Towels were abundant, duvet was light but warm and I finally have found the kind of bed frame that I want. And the view was definitely priceless.....

Alhamdulillah dengan rezeki ini Ya Allah! Engkau hiburkan hatiku dengan nikmat ini.... Thank you Allah!

It was a good break although it was just Kuala Lumpur. We went to places like the park and the playground all by foot as MO was just next to Suria KLCC. My boys played in the bathtub 3 times a day. We also went to the Convention Centre to greet and meet the people my husband has been working i.e the important people behind ICC 2016. They came from the US, Australia and France.... good exposure for the kids.

I'm totally proud and happy for my husband. He has done a good job apparently as praised by his international peers. Hey, but once you're at home you're still the father to my kids ok. Please put your foot back to the ground..... Hahah!

Permulaan untuk 2016

Sebelum ni memang selalu amik cuti masa 1st day anak-anak masuk sekolah. Patutnya tahun ni rutin sekolah takda apa yang berubah dari tahun lepas so takda apa sangat nak buat. Standby jek kot-kot van sekolah lupa nak amik budak-budak. Apart from running errands, I decided we should lepak somewhere and communicate plans for 2016.

I'm blogging from Zawara Coffee, Bangi Sentral. Been here since 12.00 noon tadi. Mai dengan hubby, discuss plans, expectation, preparation for 2016. Ye la, Jasmin kan UPSR. Pastu bibik dah nak balik kampung. Pastu cita-cita nak travel banyak tempat...

I ordered roti kaya RM4.50

Hubby ordered Big Breakfast RM12

Alhamdulillah, I think we had a fruitful time, takde la makan jek menggemukkan diri. At least certain things are sorted out and we have the same expectations for 2016, in sha Allah.

My kids were very positive this morning. No one made any drama, all were ready if not eager to go back to school. Alhamdulillah.....

Japan Experience #Fire Museum

To visit Fire Museum was on our checklist sebab trip to Japan is about the kids. Since Lutfi suka sangat bomba, Fire Museum Tokyo is a definite must! Banyak good reviews about the museum and it is also free!

The day before kami pergi sendiri (without abah) beli groceries kat Ito Yokado, Kiba. Hari ni kami nak pergi Fire Museum kat Yotsuya 3-chome naik underground. Kali ni kami jalan kaki kat Ginza sebab kena naik station dari situ.

Seronok pulak bila mengimbas kenangan meredah Tokyo dengan anak-anak. Keluar stesen Yotsuya 3-chome dah nampak Fire Museum tu. Senangggg....

Try baju bomba

Ni ada drama. Best jugak

Dress up as fire fighters

Bawak kereta bomba

Miniatures bomba zaman dulu-dulu

Nak naik helicopter

Helicopter kat tingkat 5

Kasyif trying out...

Some toys

Recommended !

Dream Picnic 2016

Tadi pergi bersantai kat Wetland Putrajaya. Sambil-sambil tu buat sesi DREAM PICNIC bersama anak-anak and hubby. Dah 3 tahun kami buat camni. 1st time buat kat Wetland gak tapi di other side, bukan yang dekat Taman Penghayatan Alam. Last year buat kat Taman Botani, lepas Langkah Ceria

Sayang takda tulis apa-apa pasal sesi tu. Actually ada la sikit kat sini.

This time buat kat Wetland yang sebelah Taman Penghayatan Alam. Ada gazebo besar, sangat selesa. menghadap 'cell', sort of kolam tapi dipanggil 'cell' sebab it's actual tempat filter air sungai kat Putrajaya ni. More about it here. Amat tenang kat sini (sebelum depa mesin rumput!)

Konon picnic. Tak masak, beli jek kat Jaya Grocer..

Pie and pastries ni beli kat The Loaf, Bangi Gateway

View from pondok. Dekat ngan 'cell'

Lutfi bergaya dengan cycling helmet abah dia...

Mula-mula takda idea nak tulis apa for 2016.  So we read back what we have written end of last year. What we want to achieve in 2015 and see whether we have achieved them, as well as what we remembered about 2014. Barulah idea datang....

I wrote a lot this time. Not so much what I want to achieve in 2016, more on lesson learnt in 2015 and sweet memories in 2015. Same goes with the kids and hubby. I think this is a good exercise because it will teach my children to have some sort of goals to achieve. At the moment, what they write is more about their wish lists. It's OK, what important is the progress.

Life priority

1. Anak
2. Haji
3. JPA

Why?
The above 2 relates to my deeds, amanah and relationship with Allah SWT. My investment for my next life.

No 3 is just about money. To practice that money is just 'di tangan', not in my heart.

Other realization found today:

I can't expect different results if I don't change the way I do things.

I want to improve my bond with my children. Previously written as 'spend more time with children'. I didn't specify what are the things I need to do. If I did, may be it was an ambitious plan . I've been planning on the activities but my weekends are occupied with me running household errands. I didn't execute and sometimes I didn't know what to do with the kids on weekends.

I felt something is not right because I realized I have not progressed since the last time I wrote my plan. I've been doing the same thing over the weekend without feeling the satisfaction of accomplishing my goal of improving my bond with children.

Stop. Just stop and think. Maybe I'm expecting a different result but no changes in the way I spend the time with them.

Write a note 'Have you hugged your children today?' and paste it on my car steering

Why?
Because it is something easy to do, currently not a routine and will have a great impact on the kids. Something I wish long time ago when I was in early parenthood. I expect that I will always give my hug and kisses and be comfortable about it.