How do I want to write my story?

 I was reading back my previous posts and I wanted to come back to this question: 

How do I want to write my story?

I used to be self limiting, lack of confidence and have no plans to accomplish something. Then COVID 19 pandemic happened and I wondered whether life is nudging me to re-look my life...Am I happy with what I'm doing? Is this the life that I pictured in my mind? Other people seem progressing and I think I have not progressing toward my goals. What is my goal?

My goal was too general...Lead a happy life. So am I currently happy? Yes, to a certain extent. I have a loving husband, loveable kids, a job that provide benefits, able to do and buy what I want (although still thinking I can't afford a LV)....but I still feel I'm missing something.

• I want to re-write and reset my life
• I want to tap into my creative side
• I want to achieve something. I want to be able to earn a little bit from digital and social media (Youtube/IG/TikTok). I can imagine myself sitting at a desk for hours strategizing or producing videos.

There are so many things I need to do and learn to be able to accomplish these. I'm giving myself a challenge to work on myself

Progess as a content creator

Hari ni dah 20 Feb. The unsureness has kicked in. Tapi Alhamdulillah, a few of motivational qoutes remind me to keep going. There are a few things I've discovered that could have stopped me but as I take them as part of the progress, those should not deter me from keep going. Everyone can and everyone face the same thing as I am....

I've made 3 posts and 13 reels within a month...semangat as new starter but I also discovered that IG doesn't pay you. They only pay for reels in US. So memang kena cari product, jual...

Currently, my goal now is to gain traffic to my IG account. I have to be more open and post things that help others. Kena schedule berapa post seminggu, hari apa, content apa....

Aku pun dah register as Shopee Affiliate 14 Feb aritu. Try nak buat affiliate marketing pulak.

Aku juga kena start buat video Youtube.

Re-Inventing Myself

Powerful betul ayat tu RE_INVENT YOURSELF...terus rasa boleh buat Youtube video...Haha! Another mantra RESET YOURSELF

Things happened unintended. Last week sambil prepare breakfast dalam pukul 6 pagi aku dengar Youtube. Dengar, bukan tengok sebab audio connect ke bluetooth speaker. Walaupun TV kat living room, aku kat dapur sambil dengar Youtube, aku tak tengok TV....

Aku pun bukannya fokus sangat tapi tiba-tiba terdengar pasal experience Vanessa Lau ni start buat Youtube channel. Aku terpanggil untuk mendengar. Sebab tu 1st time aku dengar orang cerita camna dia start buat...dia ada bagi tips and somehow aku boleh imagine the work (hard work that is). And yet I was still intrigued.

Aku terus subscribe channel dia and check out her website. Ada cakap pasal quitting 9-5 job...wow! suits me very well...and that was how the idea of becoming a CONTENT CREATOR came about.

As of today after a week, aku still belum buat youtube video lagi. Idea datang mencurah-curah tapi belum sempat sort out and decide. Banyak kena planning kalau nak buat betul-betul, tapi Vanessa kata don't let that stop you from making the video. Buat je dulu, nanti akan progress jadi OK.

Aku pun pikir-pikir, kenapa aku rasa nak jadi CONTENT CREATOR ek? Sedangkan aku tak penah pun upload pape dlm IG or FB. Dok senyap je...

Aku agak aku attracted to the process. Ada planning and kena figure out the system. Aku boleh imagine aku dok lama-lama kat kerusi edit video, captions, analyzing. Sekarang pun aku dok kat kerusi lama-lama tapi buat kerja yang tak benefit aku. Aku boleh imagine buat menda ni bila aku berenti kerja nanti.

Aku tahu bukan senang nak jadi CONTENT CREATOR. Aku tahu mungkin akan mengambil masa yang lama but don't let that hinder you from doing. Sikit-sikit, lama-lama jadi bukit.

Untuk permulaan ni, aku amik je video dlm handphone aku. Surprisingly, aku dah upload 4 Instagram reels dalam masa 6 hari. Alhamdulillah....And I started to make my IG public

Aku masih pikir camna nak buat youtube video. Nak tunjuk muka ke tidak...siapa target audience and niche aku. Kena belajar cara nak amik video, buang malu depan kamera....huish! macam-macam la kena belajar...haha!

But at least, this is tapping into my creativity to create stuff i.e. videos, pictures, captions, audio, scripts...This vision betul-betul aku yang jadi boss. Kalau freelance, still kena buat kerja untuk orang kan....Of course la long term goal is to monetize and earn something....in sha Allah Allah tolong.

Doakan aku...harap tak sangkut ditengah jalan.

My 1st_Instagram reel

 I dunno what has gotten into me, I posted 3 reels during the CNY break! I've never done it before so it was purely trial and error. It's the mantra 'JUST DO IT' i guess...The first one was just a picture. The 2nd one was combined clips, initially edited in IG but later on in CapCut as demonstrated by my youngest. The 3rd one was done in the car when we were heading back home from Manjoi. The view of the Titiwangsa was too scenic not to be captured.

 And also I made my IG public. All because to achieve my end goal that is to gain high views and earn from IG. However, 1st I need to figure out the target audience, persona and niche. Sounds very much like marketing and I'm excited to find out more and work on it....

Performance Review 2022

Performance Review 2022

Semalam ada performance review dengan boss. Alhamdulillah mood boss semalam baik so it was more about casual talk. She told some positive news and I really appreciate it. It was how a boss should motivate her staff, telling her subordinate what she saw was extra. She voted me to higher performance rating and highlighted the extra herself. Bukan suh kita tulis sendiri macam masuk bakul angkat sendiri...

She also wanted to groom me to become her successor. So not to let her waste her time, I told her about my plan of quitting...'I may not be working here until I'm 60 or even 55' I said. She said 'Oooooo...' which I think is an expected response when someone respects other people's decisions.

She also asked my opinion about something and I asked her about what I wanted to know.

So, all in all to me the performance review went well.

Plan to quit

Now that I have given a headstart to my boss, I seriously need to charter the actions plans for the 'Road to Quitting'. Alhamdulillah, I've found Vanessa Lau's channel and website that could provide me the checklists needed about quitting the job and start on doing youtube channel.

Quick notes pagi Isnin

 Alhamdulillah for last week. Today, still dapat bangun pagi and tulis blog. Last week Monday, bangun tahajud, baca Al Quran sikit 2-4 mukasurat, buat yoga 30 min pastu prep breakfast. This week sebab baru dapat period, a few activities tak dapat buat.

I just want to remind myself the little achievements I did last year:

1. approached my secondary netball teacher
2. volunteered to find the venue and attended my secondary school reunion
3. patient and ask relevant question when scolded by my boss
4. drove to Petaling Jaya
5. take leave whenever I want

This year I don't want to feel miserable about work. To minimize that, I don't want to procrastinate. Get them done and over with. There is more important thing for me to focus on...RE-INVENT myself. I only have this year to explore. I need to figure out how to re-invent myself. Try reading from here

My plan is to learn making Youtube video. Learn from my youngest. Make time to learn on Saturday afternoon maybe.

I have to continue watching Vanessa Lau's channel and start something this week.

What lights me up? What is it that makes me happy inside and out?

Wrapping Up Friday

Baru minggu ke 2 but I'm already feeling the heat! Argghhhh....cool, cool...I like it when I felt 'apa aku kisah, just get it done'. Baru la rasa laju buat kerja. Sebab most of the time memang rasa 'why am I still here?'. This is all about work...hate it. To like it, I want to do things I've never done before, for my own personal growth. Things like jawab ikut suka, really know the numbers, help others, take charge, step up.

Believe in Allah SWT, the best planner.

Aritu dok tercari-cari apa yang aku nak try buat this year. Last year dah try basic bertukang (konon!). Tahun ni maybe nak try buat video for Youtube. Target 1 video in 2023. Haha! 1 jek? Susah wooo nak buat content. Came across Vanessa Lau kat Youtube, memang detailed la sharing dia.

Lagi satu, the word re-invent yourself, mind shift. I want to alter my mindset whenever there's a negative feeling about something. And not to take time to think the negative things. Celebrate people...