I've gained my momentum back. I was quite demotivated last few weeks. Maybe because now i'm anticipating our family trip to Redang Island this coming June.
For 34 years of living, i have made quite a journey and met people from different walks of life. But mostly i don't keep in touch with. Imagine if i did, i could have a good network.... I can say i don't have lots of friends that i can hang out with at the moment. My friends are as many as the fingers on my hands (or maybe less)....I'm the type who don't keep an address book where i can use to contact people once in a while. I did wrote people addresses/phone but i don't know where the book is now. It's not that i am a loner. I was just so hooked up on everything else that i forgot to keep in touch...Now after so many years, suddenly i feel i need to make the effort to start meeting old friends again. Why? Because i was thinking would anyone come to my funeral when i die? How many people do i know that close enough and would pay the last respect? It scares me because i know the answer.
Anyway, 2 contrasting incidents happened to me. One, i was given a pat on the back by an old friend while i was doing my 'pasar' shopping. She is my ex secondary schoolmate and i was very delighted. I truthfully said i can't remember her name but surely i remembered her face (i was surprised she could remember mine)...i wasn't that close to her back then but i really respect her for coming up to me to say hi. I gave her my phone number (i didn't bring my handphone to record her number....duh)...She lives nearby so i will make an effort to invite her over to my house (unfortunately she still hasn't sms me her number until now)...
Two, i brought the kids to UKM swimming pool last Sunday. I wanted to see whether it's true that babies can swim. No! i didn't just throw my 7 mth old baby in the swimming pool....Kasyif was afraid at first but later he enjoyed being in the water. He was kicking and flapping his arms but he can't swim yet. I could tell he can float if i let him go but i don't dare to do it just yet. Not until he knows how to deal with the clorine getting into his mouth/nose....sorry, got side tracked.
There was someone in the same swimming pool who used to be a friend. She was busy swimming that maybe she didn't recognise me. (Hmmm...there weren't a lot of people actually)..I said 'used to be' because i don't know who am I to her. Back then, we rarely talked about personal matters but we mixed and said hi. We even went to a holiday together but still i don't feel she treats me as a friend. More like 'i'm a friend to you since our husbands are friends'. That day verified a bit about my assumption. We both pretended didn't see each other....i used to have this attitude 'if you don't come up to me, why should i?'....but i've changed now (a bit)....i will make the effort to greet her if she doesn't (i think she goes to UKM every weekend, and i've just started swimming after childbirth).... I just hope she will not think that i'm just bugging her weekend activity.....
So whether they are friends or acquaintance, old or forgotten....you should make the effort to refresh the relationship. Because they have added another colour in your life and made your lifestory from nothing to a bit interesting.......Maybe just a tiny little bit but isn't that better than not having any? I've also made an effort to call a friend and plan to meet up this Friday...I was quite proud of myself for doing that....It is not so me (the bad me) but i did it....I did it to improve myself and show her that i appreciate her as a friend.....
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