It's a new day

I was rather sick for a couple of days. I thought it was flu but later I was told is was urine infection. Blessing in disguise I guess because I got to think about Jasmin' school refusal behaviour lately while not being at work.

Yesterday, she did it again exhibiting behaviour that she didn't want to go to school. As usual, I was really firm about school and my husband sent her at 8.00am (school starts at 7.40am). While on his way, I Whatsapp-ed to my husband about being firm on going to school regardless circumstances. Then my husband replied 'we have to support her in her difficult times' because she told her father she doesn't have friends at school. Being suspicious whether that's true or she is just giving excuses, my usual response would be 'Really? Or she just making this up?' 

But I didn't. I had told myself I really have to sort this out TODAY because this has been going on for 4 weeks. So whatever I do today must be effective to solve this issue. It came to me that I have to change my approach. I have to do something different or else this won't go anywhere.

I have always wanted to be a mother where her children can talk to about anything. Unfortunately I don't exhibit that aura of 'being open' but I keep asking my children to talk to me. Do you think they can? Of course not and I admitted my weakness yesterday. I drop tears because I admitted I myself keep everything to myself. I don't really open up my heart to anyone. Now I understand why my children don't speak up although I keep asking them to tell me their problems.

Instead, I just replied 'Ha'ah kan' agreeing to my husband's statement and I felt so relieved. I don't know why. Maybe all this while I was too focused on Jasmin not telling her problem. I was being suspicious. I was in anger of not getting things the way I want it (Jasmin to tell her problem). By agreeing to my husband's statement, I actually admitting my own weakness. All this while, all the screaming was about me not being able to see the real problem. The problem was me, not Jasmin. Oh Jasmin! I'm really sorry....

That afternoon after school, I talked to her while driving to get some desserts from a cake shop. I asked her about friends at school. She actually responded and I felt so happy because she did. I didn't mind what her answers were but I felt like I want her to talk more. That moment was a good moment for me to remember. I felt like I was giving her a moral support.

I should do a lot more on giving moral support. I have to make time to provide support for my children.

And Jasmin is a lot better today.

SHOCK!

I was glancing through my blog and I was shocked to see an x-rated act promo on my blog! What-the-hell?

The section was titled 'Colour Me Happy' and it supposed to show pics of beautiful things such as babies and flowers. All this while it only shows still pictures and exactly pics of cute adorable babies and blooming flowers. However, lately I've noticed it also included video play symbol (the triangle) but I thought it should be no harm. Until today! Gosh!

The 'colour me happy' section on the right....

Well, I don't want to show you the x-rated one of course but now it has included not only pics of flowers and babies anymore. I have to check and make some changes....

Original keyword was 'flowers'

Since I'm currently surveying for my Bali Holiday, I've changed the keyword to 'Bali'....

Bali diet_ Week 1 Progress Report #2

I was supposed to write this on Monday i.e to update the progress weekly. But I was not feeling well and was caught up in office work. Weight on Monday was 67.9kg thus week 1 weight loss is

Start/ end date: 18 - 25 Aug (wekk 1)
Weight : 69.4kg - 67.9kg = 1.5kg loss

If I maintain my diet this week, I hope to lose the same rate in Week 2.

Fingers crossed.

Bali diet_Mid week 1 Report #1

Since I declared my weight on Monday (read here), I didn't eat much because I was fasting until today. Today is my 7th day fasting in Syawal where 3 days are within the Bali Diet Period. My weight has been stagnant at 68kg since Monday night. Hmmmm....

Weight loss until today is 69.4 - 68 = 1.4kg

But I think it is just water weight. Not truly reducing any fat because my hips and belly still feels big and 'muffin tops' is getting uglier.

Calorie wise, I've been very low on the intake. My sahur was:
500ml plain water + aloe
500ml plain water + tea mix
200ml milk + 200ml plain water + 2 scoops F1 + 1 scoop protein

Total calorie for sahur = 200. Then no calorie during the day because I was fasting. And I had the same thing for fasting break. I had small portion of white rice and chicken maybe around 300. Thus overall total is 700 calories. Is this too low?

My BMR is 1278 @ 66.5kg. I supposed it's too low but I don't each much at night because bedtime is about 10.00pm. Will I have enough time to digest the food?

I haven't start exercising since Ramadan. May be I should. Start moving Rafiza!

New buy

This year I bought a Fossil watch and Coach slim wallet from PVS.

Fossil watch Riley ES3378 was not like what I pictured but I guess it's the trend that people prefer bigger watches now. It is a bit bulky to me (compared to my old watch) and I can't really see the dates. But it has grown on me and as an overall the watch looks nice and feminine.

I want a watch with dates

Love my new wallet to replace the tattered old Esprit bought at JPO 3 years ago (read here). Chose Coach wallet 50923 Navy Blue  to match with my blue Pliage Cuir and coin purse.



During Ramadan, I nearly bought a Tod's at RM1,600. I was contemplating and trying to justify to see whether I can afford the bag. Then someone has grabbed the offer while I was doing my reasoning.

 
The bag fits what I want for my next bag:

1. Something European. Not a Coach or American brand or brand that I already have.
2. Something  bright in colour and not from leather. The yellow was perfect.
3. I don't want to worry too much about the handbag because it's gonna be an every day bag including balik kampung.

Well, better luck and maybe enough funding next time. Currently, I'm still looking for my next buy and no preference at the moment.

I also bought a pair of blue wedges (I'm blue crazy at the moment). Also to go with my blue Pliage Cuir. Love it as well.

Hectic week & BALI DIET START!

Not so much on work, more on personal life... which is good. At least something is happening in my life.

Jasmin & school refusal
Hubby went to Langkawi for 4 days 3 nights from Wednesday. Had to deal with Jasmin not wanting to go to school in the morning. I didn't deal with it quite well although I used the 'psychology' approach because she missed school for 3 days from the day her father left on Wednesday.

Weight management
Then there were jamuan Hari Raya on Friday at the office and my lorong so it was a not stop eating from morning till night. There goes my diet for Bali....

Visitors
My parents came on Friday and I entertained them until they left for Sabah on Saturday. They will be back tomorrow. I can't wait for Bali looking at their updates on Whatsapp.



Bali Diet START!
Today, is a new day. A restart for my DIET for BALI. My weight today is 69.4kg :(
Target to lose 1kg per week from today until 18 October 2014 which is roughly 2 months = 8 weeks.

My plan: eat food from home. Cut down on junk food, kuih raya. Benefit from fasting for 2 weeks (qadha and puasa sunat 6 Syawal)

School. Attendance. Attitude

Last Monday, I yelled and dragged Jasmin to the door because she didn't want to go to school. She did go because I sternly said 'I don't care whether you've finish your homework or not, you still have to go to school'....

Yesterday, she purposely didn't want to get up although I wake her up like I always do. She was not tired, she slept early, she didn't have any homework to finish. She just didn't want to wake up and go to school.

After a few attempts to make her get up (I know she was all awake ), I finally sat at the edge of the bed trying to put some sense into her. I said I didn't want to get angry like I did last week, I don't like to get angry. I said I've always ask her why but she just kept quiet for reasons why on some days she doesn't want to go to school. If she doesn't tell what's her problem, I would not know. If she thinks she can do whatever she likes, fine.... And I left.

I totally ignore her when I got home from work. I just didn't say a word.... to anyone. I was tired. I don't know what else to do. I don't know how should I handle this problem with school absence.

Jasmin is smart, manja, helpful and sometimes independent. Her bad habit is making excuses. Sometimes she does not conform to the normal routines.

Today, I asked Irdina to wake her up. I just want to see how is she gonna behave today. She didn't get up although she was awake. I just ignore her.... Let her go to school at her own will. Let her to be responsible for the consequence of her own doing.

My take for tomorrow. She will either;

1. behave the same as today. Will not go to school
2. wake by herself and go to school.

I will not go and wake her up. Let her to be responsible for the consequence of her own doing.